Here I am, another morning hunched at the desktop, working through a migraine quality headache. I don’t think it is a true migraine because that has something to do with arteries. I’m sure this is lymph nodes. If the pain isn’t equaled to a migraine, it’s right below it and I always function though it with a heavy head.
This is such a waste of a day off, but I’m glad I don’t have to go into work like this. I get too many migraine quality headaches to call in sick, so I just work through them. I hate having my productivity or attitude judged by customers, co-workers, or management, so I will usually slink off and do some background work until I feel the tell-tale signs of a pounding heart-beat, rapid breathing, a hot-flash, then break out in a sweat. Then relief.
I write nearly every morning, migraine or not. For one; I’m proving to myself that I am still productive and not a piece of waste. For two; I pray that if this is a life-long affliction I want a career that will match up to this lifestyle. …If I want to call it that? If I wake up with a headache, I can go to the computer and still be productive at my own pace. If I have to show up to an event, I can get through a couple of hours, besides I won’t have a migraine at every event. Also, most of my headaches dissipate after 5:00 p.m. and for the release of pain, I get energy in exchange. I can stay up all night writing if I want. Or clean the house all night and get in a good work out without worrying about getting up for work in the morning.
This will work, if I can just step into my “Flow” as Oprah puts it, and meet the people I am supposed to meet and behave when my instinct tells me to act.
“If anything, I want the opportunity to be proven wrong. I’m kind of surprised no one has taken me up on that offer,” says the defeatist voice that is my headache.
See why it is hard to take this thing out in public. Although it does make for some exceptional character building.
12-29-2016 woke up with migraine quality headache. Inflammation from geographic tongue has been reduced although white rings still present, with no new blooms.
Four days from start of inflammation of the tongue to migraine is questionable. So is it connected or did I introduce something else?
- I had Hershey’s hugs yesterday, which doesn’t make sense because I’ve had bits of chocolate everyday since Christmas.
- Did painting my tongue and tonsils with Benadryl delay the migraine?
- Also I’m trying to not put too much stake in this round because of a head cold.