I stare at my feet all the time. I always thought that my feet were mostly ok, except for a couple of weird little toes. I have my mom’s feet so they were FAMILIAR. Now, since I’ve been deflating as I fight inflammation, I’ve been staring at my feet.
What am I thinking when I stare at my feet? That they are mine yet, not. mine. They are unfamiliar with all their skinny and slender parts. Mostly I get mad at a lot of things. Today, I will focus on the marketing for body image acceptance. Because my body was telling me that something was wrong and I was just trying to accept that is what I look like. That this is the way it is. Accept it. Get used to it.
Same with the Geographical Tongue. There is nothing to do about it. That is the way it is. Your unique. Get used to it.
Here is the deal with past and current image that I have of my body. I have been up the scale and now I am working my way down the scale, which means, I have been this weight before.
I’m looking at the same joints. I’m looking at the same meaty parts. AT the same weight. I hated it before and now I like what I see. WHY? I am looking at the same parts on the way down as I did on the way up! I’m looking at the joints below the big toe. When my feet are up on the recliner, I see the slender outline of my foot; specifically the ball of the foot. I cross my ankles and I can see the slender curve of my instep and how my skin and muscles hug my ankles. Okay, I’ll admit they still get bigger from a hard days work, but nothing like they used to get.
What I thought was muscular from carrying my weight around, no matter how much I weighed throughout the years, is actually nearly all skeletal. It is fascinating how slender my feet are. How it doesn’t need that much muscle to work and my feet are stronger than they ever were and here I am aging but yet I feel like I’m growing younger, because my feet are so strong, flexible and might I say bony?
I’m conflicted, impressed, angered, befuddled; I get excited at how I can be the same size I was on the way up and appreciate my rib line now when loathed it before.
So here is my advice. Pay attention to what your body is telling you. Love the fact that your body communicates that something is wrong. Accept the fact that you are gaining weight, but just enough to listen to your body. Don’t love the fat. Don’t love the bloat. Acknowledge it but don’t back it with emotion. Then figure out what the heck is going on! Be aware when eating. Be aware of your environment. Be aware of every little ache and pain. Be aware of when and how you sweat. Be aware when you run. Be aware during all your workouts. Be aware when you get out of bed. Be aware when you wind down for the night.