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I Wanted Change; I Got Change!

For the first time in my life, I got fired.

I’m not reacting like I thought I would.  Most of the evening I’ve been shivering like the after effects of an adrenaline rush.  Every once in a while I have to shake off the shock, you know because it’s awkward sitting there and letting the situation of we’ve decided to let you go play out. I came home to a caring husband; I had a couple of beers with some girlfriends, and I had some laughs with my sisters over a group video chat. I’m short on sleep, but it is more about excitement rather than anxiety.

I should be upset that someone didn’t want to keep me around. That they didn’t care about my livelyhood enough to keep feeding me a paycheck. There was nothing really wrong, but there was nothing really right either.  It wasn’t a good fit and for that I got fired.  Wow! I got fired! Are you kidding me? I don’t get fired.

Yet, I’m not too broken up. I’m not bawling over it. Actually, I’m really curious about what is next. So, I figure I’ve got about three to four weeks before I really start freaking out about money. Starting tomorrow (Sunday) I’m going to make the most of it.

It is supposed to get up to 70 degrees so I am going to walk a marathon.  I’ve biked the loop around the city several times, and I’ve wanted to walk/run it. So I will do it tomorrow. I’m sure it will take me all day. I’ve been running on the treadmill the last two months so I will just be going overboard and not extremely overboard from a sedate winter.  Hopefully that will wring bad energy out of every cell in my body.

Starting Monday, I’m going to write and turn the next section of my proposal in to my writers group.  Maybe by the beginning of next week I will shoot off another round of query letters to agents.

I had hit a little bump in the road with the Geographical Oddity quest.  I was going to write about that instead of this post, so now I will have time. I’m going to continue my efforts on my diet an my work for getting 100 people in a room.

My husband and I also started tearing out the bathroom so we will be finishing that and maybe I will do the sewing project that has been lying around.

On top of all that I will turn in a couple of applications per day and spend some time with friends and family.

All is good until I have to make a car payment. Until then I’m curious as to what God has in store for me.

Query

In this day and age of write and publish, I am writing query letters in search of an agent.

In my search, I passed on an agent but her submission guidelines stuck with me.

She wanted three short paragraphs.

  1. Who are you?
  2. Why does your book need to be published?
  3. A short synopsis.

Wow. I got a little flippant at the first question.

“Who are you?”

A Writer. (.)

Wouldn’t that’d be neat to just end it there? LOL. Then I thought, “It’s true, everything else; wife, mom, employee, boss, woman, human, is just fodder for my writing.”

Then I thought number 2 and 3 were the same question posed two different ways. I mean, isn’t that what a synopsis is? I wrote this book … you need to read this book… because yada, yada, yada…

But, it’s all about the details, isn’t it? Sometime later I came up with this.

I am a writer.

I smoked for 28 years and smokers want to read what I wrote.

I had been very curious to know how to get from here (a smoker) to there (a non-smoker).  I wanted the information but I wanted it on my own terms without the threat of having my cigarettes taken away.

I used to ask former smokers how they quit all the time.  The common response was, “You have to WANT it.” I usually left the discussion thinking,”Of course I want it, but I want to know HOW?”

Today, people get curious and ask how I quit smoking. Turns out, going beyond the explanation of “You’ve got to want it,” is too much for one conversation, so much, that it creates a whole book.  That full circle experience with curiosity is how I know these books will sell.

 

 

 

Happy New Year 2016

I started the new year by writing queries to agents.  I am excited to find someone to work with.

Even though I am specific in who I query, I still expect to be ignored or at the very least turned down. No matter, I can handle the no’s. Seriously why would I want to work with someone who doesn’t want to work with me anyway.

It is the YES that I may have trouble absorbing. And I WANT that experience. Hopefully after some vetting and contemplation, I can say yes to their offer. After all, this is to be a good experience … an exciting experience. I want to relish challenges, share what I know, venture into what I don’t know. Ohh, I am so looking forward to meeting my agent.  This is going to be a blast!

Yes, I am excited for the New Year!

On Writing

Writing is one big, long prayer.

Whether it is non-fiction or dressed up as fiction, writing tells it how it is, demonstrates what is going on, shows how it could be.

It admits guilt, addresses hate, pride, fear, and calls for change.

It celebrates the good in the most profound way.

Similarly it’s perfect in its imperfection.  Could always do better, use another word, … always an incomplete sentence or an incoherent thought.  You only know if you’ve done a good job if you’ve come away both spent and energetic, purged but full, and nothing has changed, but… yet, something has.

TGIM: Thank God It’s Monday

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Today’s lesson in Blogging 101 is to participate in a blogging event from the Community Event Listings.   I chose to take part in the Thank God It’s Monday event from TASTE & SEEeven though it’s Wednesday and not Monday.

Why?  Well it doesn’t really make a difference anymore.  In our 24/7/365 lifestyle the weekend up and disappeared.  Poof.  We have days off now and they don’t always line up with Saturday and Sunday.  My Wednesday might be your Friday and your Monday might be my Tuesday.   For those who work 12 hr shifts they may have a Saturday and 2 Sundays.  The communal routine to get off work on Friday, get smashed, go to church on Sunday and ask for forgiveness to start the grind all over again on Monday is no more.

I chose this blogging event because I actually experienced what it is like to truly enjoy Mondays.  Things were so bad, that I wanted to put the week behind me and get fresh start.  Days off meant a stasis in the status quo.  I was trying to prevent things from getting worse and I had to work to get out of it.  The present sucked.  I was fighting, clawing, and pulling, to drag the future towards me.  With that I suddenly loved Mondays … couldn’t wait for them to get here.  Forget “the future is now” I wanted the future to be yesterday.  Mondays meant new opportunities, new chances, another step in the RIGHT direction. I wanted MORE of them.

Today, I have a less obsessive and more balanced outlook on Mondays.  If I love my job, (the biggest cause for hating Mondays) if I love my family, if I relish life, shouldn’t I love Mondays?

After the break of the weekend, shouldn’t everyone look forward to meeting the people they work with?   Shouldn’t I enjoy working with them.  Everyday is another day to experience family life, not just the weekends.  Everyday is another day to produce who I am to my family and their opportunity to produce who they are to me.  That is not dependent on a Monday or a Friday.

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